I don't mean to whine but...

Look I feel completely useless. Much like I'm an extra anchor weighing down my family.I can't find a job, so they have to pay for college for me. And on top of that, I can't even manage to keep my scholarship, the one thing I did to contribute to paying for my education. I also managed to hit a parked car after driving my own vehicle for almost two years. How stupid do you have to be? I didn't tell my parents that day. I don't know why. I was scared and frustrated. I also thought it would be better to tell them in person. But the insurance company called them first, so that's how they found out.

All in all, It's come to the point where all I do is take money that they struggle to get, and end up throwing it away because I am some sort of chronic screw up. I just hate feeling like all I do is suck money away. I hate feeling like such a burden. I feel terrible because they work so hard and I never have been able to show how much I care that they do.

I know this is whiny and the solution is to go out and fix it. I know. But many things are easier said then done. I won't stop trying but I get so sick of making stupid mistakes that hurt others, you know?


  1. you can pay us back someday when you're a big time musician traveling with a professional band :)love you

  2. Brooke- hitting my car was the most exciting thing that happened that year
    mourina- its true. we had no life